Monday, November 7, 2011
Theeeeeeeeere she is!!!!! My lil niece, Norah Elisabeth, due March 24, 2012!!! I can't get over how cute she is even on sonogram! Her lil button nose! Ah, so cute! :) I am totally absolutely excited and cannoooooot wait!! :) :) We've all been hounding Meg N Barry forever about when they're going to have a baby! Finally!!! Three aunts... she's so spoiled already!! I can't go anywhere it seems like without buying her something! Hhaha!! As soon as Jeff heard it was a girl, he said oh no... this is going to be bad for my wallet! Lol! So true so true!! :) I just wanted to share this lil piece of heaven, aka my niece! :) That's all!!
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Ya know? As soon as I rededicate my life to Christ, it only gets 100 times harder... ! All my life I've heard it's not easy to follow Christ but goodness. It's just the small things I said I'd start with. A quiet time everyday- welp, it probably couldn't have been harder getting up in the mornings the last week or so! A positive attitude going to work- I may have said I've had a hard week before.. but I swear last week was the absolute worst week of my working life by far. I worked about 65-70 hours with zero, yep, zero overtime. I was exhausted. Ready to just walk out of there. Then, I get my new schedule for the next 6 weeks- working every single Sunday. Even after I've asked my director to at least please put me on every other Sunday if you have to put me on Sundays at all. She said she would. Nope. How am I supposed to fellowship and get fed the Word?!!? I honestly just don't know what to do these days....! The only way I know how to describe it is that I am so dehydrated and am soo hungry for God, the Word, fellowship and ministry and it seems like I can't find a way to do it! I'm so frustrated. I feel like I have no one. No one to lift me up. No one to go to. That's one of the BIGGEST things I'm lacking- just good Christian friends... yeh I have friends who are Christians, but no one it seems who is the full definition of the words. Someone who cares about me and my personal walk with the Lord. I am helpless and hopeless and I, like I said, don't know what to do. I have some free time but no one calls me. It is ALWAYS me who calls out to my friends. No one ever calls me. I'm honestly getting sick of it and honestly need new friends. You know, in the midst of all this what seems like venting, I will say this as I'm thinking and typing. The ONE good thing that has happened is that I did meet a new friend.. just a couple days after I rededicated my life. Whitney. Ya know, it was so weird. I just went to work to help a friend out at the Beach, walk in not knowing many people since I left, she was there, we introduced ourselves, and were instant friends. But you know what's even cooler.. that very first day we were able to talk about our walks with Christ. That.. is something that doesn't happen everyday- especially not at work. Work is nuts. I've realized that at my full time job, I need to work on my testimony. I've always been the quiet one about my faith at work anyway, but you know, that should be the place it is the most potent. I need to be a light in that dark dark pitch black mean place I know as work. Lol. It's baaaad. But, maybe that's where I can start. It may sound stupid, but writing this helps a lot. I hope I don't come across as too upset, but honestly, I am inside... and once again, I don't know exactly what I'm to do and where or how to start to do it. I'll start with prayer... and just ask the Lord for guidance... oooh. Life is so hard... but it was never promised to be easy.. especially as a believer...
Sunday, September 18, 2011
"I have built a city here-
Half with pride and half with fear.
I just wanted a safer place to hide
I don't wanna be safe tonight..
I need You like a hurricane
Thunder, crashing wind ,and rain
To tear my walls down
I'm only Your's now.
I need You like a burnin' flame
A wildfire untamed
To burn these walls down
I'm only Your's now.
I'm only Your's now.
I am Your and You are mine
You know far better than I
And if destruction's what I need
Oh, then I'll receive it Lord, from Thee
Yes, I'll receive it Lord, from Thee
I need You like a hurricane
Thunder, crashin wind, and rain
To tear my walls down
I need You like a burnin flame,
A wildfire untamed
I'm only Your's now.
And it's Your eye in the storm
Watchin over me
And it's Your ete in the storm
Watching only good for me
And if You are the One,
Let me be your casualty
Til I'm only Yours..
Yours, Oh Lord.
- Hurricane by Jimmy Needham
Ya know. Last night, I sat in bed thinking of every and any reason not to go to church this morning. I'm too tired. I hurt from days and days of house transforming- I need a day to rest before going back to work tomorrow. Even after telling my sister I was going, I still thought these things and wondered how I'd tell her this time that I wasn't going to be at church...again. That's just half of it. The other half of me is dying inside. It's so hungry, just yearning for the Word, for worship, for praise music, for sweet fellowship and sweet Christian friendships. I once had these things. My relationship with the Lord back in 2009 was so sweet. This was the time that I've been the closest with Him. He had brought me through a tremendous amount of pain with so many trials and tests, but through it all, the Lord was my best friend... I want that back. But then, I started Nursing School and had to get a job to help pay for bills and stuff that started working my mandatorily every Sunday. That's how it started. Since then, I've fallen out of church- go oh every once in a while, ya know, every time I felt I needed something. I am so thankful that I had that though and was still able to hear Him and feel Him tugging at my heart. The Lord was still there... the whole entire time... just sitting, waiting and knocking... it brings me to tears to think about. This morning, when my alarm clock went off, I turned it off, stared at the ceiling and thought to myself, thank You, Lord for lifting my head this morning. This is the beginning of a new day and the beginning of something new and refreshing. All morning as I was getting ready, I was just humming away songs that were placed in my mind. Hurricane was one of them, come thou fount, thou oh Lord, come to my rescue... all these songs. On the way to church, I was brought to tears and even had to sit there in my car drying my eyes before I walked into church. Right there in my car, I prayed. There was honestly a split second that went through my mind that there is no way the Lord can hear me... it's been so long and I'm so far. Why should/would/could He forgive me for the sins I've committed??? There's no reason apart of His mercy and grace and the fact that there is nothing... NOTHING... that can even take away my salvation or separate me from God. I wrote in one of my journals loooong time ago a quote that's well-known but it has never rang so true to me as it did this morning and it's "You may be a million miles away from God, but it only takes one step to get back.." As that replayed over and over in my head, I was just overwhelmed with love. Right then and there, I repented and gave my heart and life back to Christ.... wow. How refreshing it is to be a child of God. I am so not worthy... but He is faithful. I am so so so thankful for my Lord, my Savior, Jesus Christ...
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Where to start, oh where to start!?!? I guess with our big day! It was the best day of my life. It was simply perfect and I couldn't ever ask for anything more. There's just no way to even begin to describe it all! Pictures say a million words, so that's what we've got pictures and albums for. I'll never forget the moment when I got to the end of the grass, turned to face the isle and look up to see my prince charming at the other end of it! I could not wait to get down there, I honestly think I was pulling my dad along next to me as I ran down the isle! ;) Jk, but that's how excited I was. As much as I was excited, I was so nervous! Not seeing him until that moment was so priceless. I'm so glad we decided to do it that way! The look on his face was even better than any butterflies in my tummy! He looked all of ecstatic, happy, in love, excited, nervous, like-he-was-about-to-pass-out, lol, as anyone could ever be!! It was finally here! The day and all of the countless priceless memories that came along with it we've been waiting for!! Since the night of our first date, we'd been inseparable and this was the day that would make up inseparable officially! ;) It's soOoOo exciting! To be married.. is.. wonderfully wonderful! I am loving it. Now, I have YET to ever cook for my boyfriend/fiance'/husband... but I'm working on it.. kinda! lol. My excuse was always when I'm done with school or when we get married, I'll start cooking- I'll have more time! Then when I finished, I started my job, then got engaged, and it's just been going non-stop! Now, all this stuff with my Grandaddy is taking up a lot of time and stress and my sanity! :( That story's could be it's own blog.. but to recap for later- he went in for a regular routine in and out outpatient surgery. It ended up getting infected. Went in for surgery to clean it out. Started having back pain and they couldn't control it so of course then HE went out of control and all the pain meds and medicines they'd give him to calm him down started taking negative affects on him (hallucinations, craziness!). He went to another hospital to finish out antibiotics. Things only kept escalating. Physical therapy started getting painful and eventually he couldn't even go bc of pain, his foot dragging, who knows... I was on my honeymoon! :) (That's next!) Well when I get home, he was at another hospital and had had another surgery!!! This time, they told me he'd absolutely gone crazy, was in restraints, and were going to send him to the Psychiatric hospital downtown. Okay...!? He gets there, there's no bed, so while waiting in the ER for a bed up there, they do an assessment and find that his leg is ice cold, swollen, and white/shiny. (any nurse would automatically think blood clot but obviously ppl who had been taken care of him are idiots and were more worried about his crazy mind that his surgical sites/medical care?! idiots. ) So yep, right away, they take him in for another surgery to try and get the clot-- bad news! The clot's been there at least a week! Eventually after waiting a week or so and watching his leg turn black, oh yes, what do they do!? Amputate his leg mid thigh and down! YUP! YEH...! uuuughh. Makes me sick and honestly, ashamed to be a nurse and be called the same thing as those idiots! jkdajgkakg. Who knows what's going to happen. All we can do at this point is pray and be as supportive as possible. He seems like he's giving up some days, while others he'll be determined to get out of there. It's a very sad situation. Grandaddy has always told me that I'm the 'strong one' in our family. It has seemed to prove itself true and I've been able to see what he's meant all these years through this very situation. I've definitely broken down once or twice, but it's held in usually, I'm able to be okay in front of everyone, be there for my sisters, and I'll break down later alone. I don't necessarily know if I'll enjoy always having that title, but I'm glad I have it and I hope my sisters can count of me for some sort of strength in any situation...! Well this is supposed to be Molly's Smiles so we'll stop that!! lol. The honeymoon---oh my goodness! I did NOT want to leave!!! I asked Sandals in Jamaica if they needed a nurse, lol! Shooot, I could live there alllll the time! We had the time of our lives! Countless memories, moments, smiles, laughs, relaxation, and just all together great fun times! I'll definitely go back in a heartbeat! We had our own lil villa down the beach, our own private pool/patio/butler. Ah, it was awesome! My favorite part was the fact that we could pick up the butler phone and be like hey Tarrick! Can you bring me a big plate of nachos and cheese, lots of cheese of course, along with a *Jamaican Smile*?? (our favorite mixed drink in Jamaica) Bring it to the main pool!! Hhahaha! Good times! We met some friends, which we'll hopefully keep in contact with! Jeff wearing Georgia shirts and Braves hats all around brought us lots of attention and that's of course, how we met our friends- football talk! Haha! Well since we've been home, married life has been lovely! We've started redoing the house, finally!! I can finally fix OUR house! I've been waiting for it to be mine before I start tearin things down and out! Haha! I'll eventually be posting before/after photos... every room a night and day difference!! Yikes! I love his parents to death but I honestly have NO earthly idea what they were thinking when decorating this house! ;) ahhh! Haha! :) I'm glad I actually got a few minutes to update my life on a computer journal! Jeff left yesterday for the hurricane work so I've had a lil extra spare time! Welp, my eyelids are getting heavy. Yes, it's Saturday night at 9:22 but I worked my lil tail off for 13 hours today and I get to wake up pretty soon and do it all over again! Yippy skippy!!! :) Til next time! Tootalu!!
Monday, May 30, 2011
OOOOOOOOH... how I do not want to go back to work tomorrow! Bla! I've had, though, the best weekend down at the river condo just chillin, layin out in the sun, swingin watching the sunsets and fishin and such for the last 5 days with my handsome fiance' and my almost inlaws! And I definitely don't wanna get back to real life! It's spoiled me rotten and that's not a good thing! But, I must think that I'll be on yet another wonderful vacation, let me rephrase that, the BEST vacation one could ever dream of in ONLY 26 days... THE HONEYMOON!!!!! Yippy! I think I am most definitely not going to want to return to life after all of that!!! Haha! I am so beyond excited for the next month it's not even funny! I've only got 8 more nights of work and then I'm off!!! Everyday from here until July 3rd is jam packed with stuff for the wedding! Every second I am not working or sleeping, there's something to do for the wedding! Stressful I tell ya! But this stress is an exciting stress that I definitely don't mind enduring! I don't want it to ever end! This is just too exciting! That's all I can say about it! Lol! And ol Jeffie, he's just watchin me and waitin! lol. I'm sure that's comical in and of itself! ;) He can't wait either tho! :) Wha hooooo! Come on 26 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You can't come soon enough!!! Hurry but let me enjoy every single lil second of it!!!! :) I can't wait to marry the love of my life! :) :) :) :) :)!!!!!!!!!! Yeh, I'd say I'm just a liiiiiil excited, don't ya think!?!?!? lol :)
Friday, May 6, 2011
OOOOOOOOONNNNNNLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYY 49, yes 49 days people til I marry the love of my life! :) Holy Wedding Bells!! I cannot believe it's this close! That's craziness! Pure craziness I tell ya! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! So much to do and so little time to do it in! Yikes!!!! So ummm our place only hold about 220 tops, right?! Well, without knowing it, our lists kept growing and growing and we kinda accidently sent invitations for oh only about 300 or more people! I sent out the invitations only 3 days ago I think and already every single RSVP that's come back to me is a yes yes yes yes we're coming. Double yikes! I have a feeling we're gonna be just a liiiiitttle crunched in our ol venue! But ya know what, it's all gravy baby! The funny thing is, only about 70 of those 300+ are people I know! The other 230, no clue! I'm sure everyone's gonna want to meet me but I'm gonna tell ya, I WILL be on the dancefloor at my own wedding lol! I prob won't last too long runnin around meeting people, although I want to! Not enough time, I can already tell! Buuuut hmm. I think it hit me the other day. I was just sitting here thinkin. Aaand just bust out in tears. Happy tears of course. I was just thinking about everything that's happened that's brought me to this place. It's hard to believe that such a rough road would turn into the red carpet if ya know what I mean. Just wow. Those tears represent a lot and I am just so SO so happy, it's not even funny! As hard as I try, I just cannot describe it. I probably never will be able to. I know how lucky I am to have such a sweet man as my everything. What a love. My love. Forever and ever and a day. No doubt. When I was tearing up I also thought about this... ummm I have a feeling I'm gonna cry on my wedding day. lol. As much I don't cry and as happy as I am and will be, I think the real hitting me will occur that day and I'm gonna lose it. Haha! But, alllll happy tears! :) Wow, only 49 days.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yippy trippy skippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Well well well, where shall we start?!?! Life... is absolutely wonderful, crazy, non-stop, happy, stressful, playful and perfect all wrapped up in one!! Ever since the engagement, it's been go go go for our June wedding!! Because we'd discussed the June wedding before, of course, I'd been thinking up ideas, colors, flowers, and such already so once I got the bling ring, it was on! C'mon, what can I say, I'm a girl!! :) Mrs. Murray and I should be pro wedding planners because we somehow managed to arrange and plan the wedding in about 3-4 weeks! Well, the big stuff anyway! :) The little stuff, we're still doing but everything is working out perfectly! Well, David's Bridal is a whole other story but we won't go there! Haha! I'll pretend like everything is wonderful with them too! :) Tonight, me, Mrs. Murray and my wonderful girls, Meg and Christina, put together the invitations!! They'll be going out shortly! Ahhhhh! This is really real...! I honestly don't think it's hit me yet... and I'm not sure when it will! I'm thinking that week before my wedding when I'm not at work because it IS the week OF our wedding... yeh, it just might hit me then! Or possibly when I start that walk down the isle and I see my handsome groom at the other end...! Yup, that'll most likely do it if not before then!!! lol! Wow. I'm one lucky girl. I say it so much, but I have no idea why or how I got so so so so lucky! I miss him like something crazy which is probably why I'm writing...! He had to go to Alabama, where all the tornados hit this week! eeek! We've been waiting for a "hurricane" for so long and I can't tell ya how many times Jeff's said we need a hurrican lol but thank goodness a natural disaster has hit and he's out there on the job! Thank goodness! I'm happy cuz my baby's happy! :) But I miss him. Not cool. Even more than usual because he left Thursday but I worked Wed, Thur, & Friday nights... so I didn't get to spend time with him the night before he left. :( But, it's a good thing, I gotta keep telling myself! And work, that's another thing.. uuuugh. I am soooo not a fan of the night shift, lemme tell ya!!! Ugh. It is seriously some hard work, not just the work, but the lack of sleep part...! blaaa! Lack of sleep is starting to make me literally sick. Anyway, in the midst of what seems to be horrible, I am just SOOO glad to have a job! I know so many people who don't have one. So, all in all, I'm so thankful! Speaking of which, I should be asleep and have no idea how I'm still awake..so off I go! Til next time!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
HE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ME AND MY LOVE ARE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL! Those explanation points could go on forever and ever and a day! Wow, I'm engaged! To the love of my life! Breathless...! We've known since our very first date that we had something special and have been inseparable ever since, but we've waited for this for a while! Now that the moment's here, it's indescribable. The phrase seems way overused, but it's too good to be true! And there's no way to explain how I'm feeling. The feelings were evident in the moment it happened... he was stupid nervous, I was stupid smiling, and it was all just an over-abundant, overwhelming sense of strait up happiness, joy, and love all wrapped up in one. Neither one of us remember what was said lol, but it doesn't matter. I just remember him getting on one knee, looking me in the eye, and asking me to marry him.. and me saying yes! The rest is history! lol. So, how'd he do it you ask? Well let's see if I can recreate it! ;) First of all, yesterday was just good from start to finish! We got to sleep in, we went on our first bike ride together (long story about his new bike, which he manipulated to secretly hide his pistol lol), I got my yearly supply of girl scout cookies, and it just kept getting better from there! Well, we were just watchin tv and about 4 he was like, honey, why don't we get ready and go do something. Okay, not an uncommon thing. No problem. So, getting ready, I always ask, hmmm should I wear a dress or jeans and heels and such. Yesterday, he said dress (he usually says jeans n heels). He likes heels. lol. But, that was cool because it was actually warm enough to wear a cute dress! Just so happens I bought a kinda fancier dress for when I thought he was going to propose (haha). So, I asked him where we were going. He said, ehhh I think we'll go walk around Academy Sports (we do this a lot lol) then grab something to eat and maybe catch a movie. At that point, I figured I'd just wear a casual dress and wait on the fancy dress saved for that special night! So, off to academy sports we went. In the truck, we always decide where to eat on the road so we were trying to decide when he asked, wanna eat at P.F. Changs? Of course! This, of course, was where we "reconnected" when I was working there last year. So, we had always said we would save this place for special occasions. Well, we had eaten there previously when it wasn't an occasion, so I honestly thought NOTHING of it! Haha! Well, we got the hook up with seating from my girls (thank you~!!!!) and we actually got a free dessert from my old manager! I took a pic of it too! lol. Well, we had gotten our check and were just sittin, talking, and passing time until our movie about 45 minutes away. Well, he started getting out of his seat and so I grabbed my purse thinking that was the sign we were leaving but NOPE! It wasn't. He said, no we're not leaving yet. And then he said something like I want to keep this place very special to us... then he got down down on his knee right there in the restaurant and popped the big question! And like I said, the rest was history! Everyone around us was so excited lol and it was cool because my friends there at PF Changs were there to see too! SoooooOOOOOooo exciting! Well, after telling our parents, we definitely didn't make it to the movies! Haha! The Murrays wanted to see asap!!! :) So we headed over there for the rest of the night! :) Wow, a simple story, but it means soooo much! It's still kind of in the shock stage but there's so much excitement! I didn't sleep last night because my mind was racing, my cheeks were hurtin from smiling nonstop and just thinking about our future! I've said it before but I'll say it again, I'm the absolute luckiest girl in the entire galaxy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's the truth! I've got the man of my dreams who loves me more than words could say. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with my love, Jeffrey Stephen Murray! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) get the point?! :)
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Welp, I only got three days of rest between my test and starting my new job. Looking back, hmmm. Maybe I should have taken a vacation or something! Lol! I busted my butt studying, took the test and now I find myself busting my butt working on the floor and trying to take it all in!! I must say, I am more than extraordinarily thankful for my job seeing as many of my friends haven't found one yet! So I shouldn't be complaining AT all! :) I am definitely loving working as a nurse! Mayan, it's been a long time coming! It is a lot to learn, but I'm excited to get it all down pat! Honestly, I cannot wait until I get it down, get some experience and then get to go where I want to go, which everyone knows, is Labor & Delivery or the NICU, equal desires! It'll be a while, but still, can't wait! I'll definitely be at Memorial forever! Why, you ask?! I never ever ever want to sit through another Nursing orientation in my life! Ugh, that was brutal! Lol. So, hello, Memorial and thank you for my future retirement! :) Jeff's next to me reeling off jokes.. here's one I thought was funny...! :)
A man was wondering how his wife could be both so beautiful and stupid at the same time. The wife said allow me to explain. God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me. God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you..! Bahaha!
True that! Just kiddin..! lol
I reckon that's all for today! :)
Til next time..!!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Ummm....YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!! What can I say?! I've been waiting for this for a loooong time! Lol! There's absolutely no way to describe the load that's just been lifted off of me! Ahhh!!! Wow. Me, FINALLY a Registered Nurse! That's all I can say at the moment! I definitely don't deserve this, and definitely give all glory to the Lord for giving me this opportunity. He's the one who's given me the ability, He's the one who has seen me through every moment, up and down, of these past four years that I've attempted going to Nursing School. There's nothing I can say that would say this is because of me! :) I'm sooo sooOOoo thankful and blessed beyond measure! That's apparent and its very humbling too....!!! :) Well, you'll have to excuse me, while I go shopping, something I haven't been able to do for ooooh about 2 1/2 years while penny-pinching! After eating lunch with the bestie that is! Yippppy skippppy!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :)
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I can't tell you how relieved I am to have those stupid nursing boards behind me and off my chest! Now, I get to wait for the results! Oh yippy... I hate waiting! I can tell ya that much! Done way too much of it in my day only to be let down so let's hope that doesn't happen now! Anywho, there's just no way to describe how free I feel! Haha! I didn't know what to do with myself after I finished my test at about 930 am... I was so bored! What else was there to do besides studying!?! I don't even know anymore! Well, I hung out with Kiwi, went shopping with Madison, crazy cleaned the house, finally took down the Christmas tree lol, and have been able to watch TV and am about to go to the gym all without feeling guilty! Every time I'd do anything, no matter what it was, I'd feel like I should be studying! So wow, it was great! I'm freeeeeeeee!! That's all. More to come when I find out I passed! I think I did good cuz for one, it cut off after 75 questions as opposed to after 265 questions and second, every other question was a 'select all that apply' questions, a level 3 question! That's a good thing! Or so I hear! We'll see if I'm above the line and pass that dumb test! lol Cuuuz I sure don't want to go through it again! So with that, I wait! :)
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Where to start, oh where to start?!! Wellll... let's see. I have the most awesome bestest wonderfullest handsomest greatest sweetest funniest lovingest boyfriend ever! I am truly the luckiest girl in the whooooole wide world!!! Hehehe. That starts things off! I can't wait for certain things to happen! ;) But anywhoos, my days are jam packed filled with studying from sun up to almost sun down it seems like! I'm surprised I'm actually on here... I'm currently procrastinating that's all. I just finished my Bible study for the day so I figure I'll write a little before I have to stare at the computer then do hundreds of questions for hours and hours. Next Wednesday is a big day- I'm taking the dreaded NCLEX-RN. Scaaared crazy but you know what... I'm gonna pass this darn test! The Lord has put me here, in this place, has given me the abilities to be a nurse that not all people possess, and really, everything I need. I just have to be confident both in that and that He will get me through, if is so His will to do so! So with that, I have peace. Didn't come easy. I've definitely broken down and doubted myself and my ability maaany many times, but am thankful I have the Lord leading my life and every detail in it, even when I feel angry, beaten down, and doubtful! So yeh, February 9th.. yikes but :) lol. Some good news?! I got the job at Memorial! They called me I think 2 days after I graduated, I interviewed and BAM, I got the job! Oh yeh!!! Soooo excited! I start on Valentine's Day! What a great way to spend it, huh?! But Jeff has jury duty that day too so it equals out! We'll be glad to see each other that night, that's for sure!!! :) :) :) It seems that nothing else is really goin on these days other than studying. Honestly. Boring life huh? I cannot waaaaaaait until this stress and heaviness is off my chest and I can sit back and enjoy myself again!!!! I can't imagine what it's going to feel like! lol. With that, see, I'm feeling guilty that I'm not studying so I must go! haha! Til next time! Oh, and here's some updated pics!!! :) Can't forget those!